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Staying focused on my dream of having a baby

My name is April. I’m 38 and have always known that I wanted to become a mother. I had always pictured that I’d have a baby after I found the right guy, got married and we’d bought a house. But that’s not the way it’s worked out. All my close friends have started getting married and having their kids, but I haven’t found the right partner. I’m happy for my friends, but if I’m being honest, it’s also been hard seeing them become mothers when I’ve wanted so badly to share that experience. So after turning 37, I started toying with the idea of having a child on my own. Over the last year I checked out various fertility clinics, got my fertility tested, and read up on sperm donation options. I also started reading blogs written by women who are single mothers by choice.  Finally, I decided I was ready to take the plunge! I picked out my sperm donor, and the clinic ordered 6 straws for me. I had my first insemination last month. Unfortunately, I didn’t get pregnant, but my doctor told me that it could take several tries, so not to be discouraged. I booked another insemination for next month.

Now here’s where the universe seems to be playing a trick on me – just a couple days after I found out that I wasn’t pregnant and booked my next insemination, I met a really great guy named Jack! I agonized whether or not I should tell him that I was trying to get pregnant, but then I thought, “What do I have to lose? At this point, not a lot!”  So I told him, and he was surprisingly, understanding. He said if I really want to have a baby, I shouldn’t stop treatment because we just met two weeks ago. To be honest, I was relieved, because that’s the way I feel too. It’s awesome to have met him, and I’m hopeful about the possibility of getting to know him better, but I’ve wanted a child for so long, and I feel like I’m up against the biological clock. If I stop now and things don’t work out with Jack, then who knows if I’ll still be able to get pregnant. So I’m going to stay focused on my dream of having a baby, and just see how this new relationship and the universe unfolds.

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